Friday, April 15, 2011


Welcome to my knitting doldrums. Everything I was so excited about 2 days ago has suddenly become bleh. I haven't knit or crochet anything. I'm not too worried about it. I know I'll miss it shortly and go back with all fervor, probably sometime this weekend.

Tonight, however, is a party. A secret underground party. So secret I still don't know where it is. I'm not worried though, I have several people to contact in case I can't figure out the super secret clues that point to the super secret location. Bruce and I have plans to set up a meditation tent, so I also need to get a tent in order. I'm going to ask one friend if I can use his tent, but he can be rather particular so there's a chance he'll deny my request*. If that doesn't work out, I plan to just swing by my parents' house and get their tent. That, and I have to arrange my carpool. If my friend who has the tent wants to go to the party, I'll suggest that his van is the best vehicle. If he doesn't go*, it'll be my car and I'll probably need to get gas at some point.

*My poor, poor friend. He likes his privacy, so let's call him X. X used to be the life of the party, everyone's best friend, the guy you absolutely had to know. Lately he's been really shut down, and turning down invitations left and right, and even his generous nature has been freezing up. It used to be "My home is your home, my stuff is your stuff, my time is your time, as long as there is love and respect". Now his personal philosophy seems to be "Don't get too close to me, don't touch my stuff, if you want love and respect you'd better earn it 10 times over". This is not new, and not necessarily bad. I've known X for many years now and this is a symptom of too much stress and not enough solutions. But he's so shut down that I don't know how to help him. This is also not new, both X and I are used to having to do stuff all by ourselves, it's how we were raised. We were taught as children that helpful people are not really helpful, most people are super selfish, and anything worth having much be accomplished by our own hands in order for it to truly be ours. I just want X to know that I'm happy to do anything in my power to make his life at least a little brighter. I really, really hope he comes to the party tonight, I think it'll do a lot to lift his spirits.


  1. I had the doldrums recently (or the Knitting Blahs as I referred to them on my blog!) They passed pretty quickly though.

    Hope you found the party!

  2. Cupcakes! Make cupcakes! That makes everything better?